TunnelofLoveoftheliv

Have you ever been hated? Have you ever felt like you deserve all that hate? I can't look at the mirror without thinking that I'll never be what others expect me to be. It's being hard to walk down the streets pretending that I don't even care… because I care. I've always wanted to be that kind of girl who doesn't really mind of what people say, but I'm not. So all I can do is to keep my head high and fake a smile, although I know that I'm tumbling deep inside. All I can say is "I'm perfectly fine" when I know I wanna die. Have you ever felt like a roller coaster? First everything's fine and, suddenly, all you know is that you reall

How much time has passed? It feels like it was yesterday the last time I saw your face. I still can't believe that you're not here. I'm always asking myself if you're looking down upon me, but I guess the answer is no. I love you. And I regret all those times I didn't tell you. Because you were my life, and, now you're gone, I don't even know who I am. I can't avoid wondering if dad knows about all what happened, and I just don't think he does. He's never cared about us. Are you there? Do you hear me when I talk? This is killing me. Why did you left? Why didn't me? I hope if you're watching me right now you can see how much pain y

You clearly can't see how all this hate is breaking me deep inside. Or, maybe you can see it and you just enjoy watching me falling apart. You have no idea of what I've been through in my entire life, but you just love to make me hate myself. Seems like if you'd love to see me cutting myself again, and all that I can do is just stay here, trying to figure out why this is happening to me.